I’m heart broken again. I always get my heart broken..
Because I have tasted frustration, I value fulfillment.
Because I have been lonely, I value love." — Leonard Nimoy (via onlinecounsellingcollege)
(via roseymaplemoth)
I know I have a lot of shit going on and I’m a lot to handle I’m a full time job until I get my car again honestly. But I wonder if I’m not pretty enough or cute enough and I don’t have the nicest clothes or items.. but I loved you with my whole heart and it just really sucks guys . And I have no friends to fucking talk to so there is this
Being in love with a drug addict is mentally the hardest thing I have ever done in my life. No it sounds dumb and naïve, trust me I know. It’s nothing something you ask for it’s not something you want but it happens to people every single day. Loving a drug addict is meeting them clean and them showing you who they are and say you fall in love.. like myself. You become completely head over heels with this person… then the recession begins … mood swings begin.. lying, irritable, selfishness it all begins. You get through it you blame yourself you say well I wasn’t good Enough or I didn’t do this week enough you listen to it all and you believe you aren’t living up to par. They make you feel this way and you keep on because you love them. You decide to walk away, you’ve made up your mind the final decision. Then they come back… they practically beg they tell you they want this to work and they choose you. Clean again. They work their magic and you fall COMPLETELY in love this time. Head over fucking heals. You think this is it you think this is the one … I’m good enough this time thank god. Thank you god for putting this wonderful person in my life. Then relapse. And they are gone again. And they are done again… and so is my heart.
I just want to hug them and tell them I’m here for them and they can do this and I won’t give up because I love them, just let me be apart of you .One of the hardest things I’ve ever experienced is happening now. Someone I care about deeply is an addict … I thought they have been clean but they haven’t been… they are now in Jail and idk if I should get them out … or even talk to them when they get out… I need to do what’s best for me but I love them.
I wonder when the pain goes away
who is this?
